It has been a while. I have started many posts and not finished them or finished them but decided not to post them. I have many stories of how God has been working in my life, in my realm...but many of those stories I cannot publish as of yet.
I am currently an RN by trade. Five years in and learning lots. God does some amazing things in the oddest of situations, and when very few people are paying attention.
...I have caught glimpses.
I have a growing understanding of how God works and His capacity to love us.
God is truly amazing, patient,...loving...
Like I have mentioned in the past, I have no church family right now. My walk with God lately has been very personal, very raw...very real. No prayer partners, no feel-good corporate worship, no spiritual advisor to mentor me or to turn to for direction...Just the Holy Spirit and my Bible.
It is an odd season in retrospect. I have a love/hate relationship with the Church. I have seen and experienced the damage the leaders and members of our churches can inflict on others, but I have also seen and experienced the true love of Jesus Christ manifest itself through the Church. But like many others, I approach the Church warily and I am not very eager to jump into a new "family" of believers at this time.
Our focus is to be on Jesus, not on man...
It is that mandate that I am learning to prioritize as I attempt to share the Love and Truth with others in my daily walk and as I attempt to know Him better.
It is an ongoing mandate.
Working in health care, in my particular role, I have frontline experience with new life just entering into our world, with old life passing on, and everything in between as they struggle to change their health status. I pray for them-for them and for my colleagues daily. In my current position, (as it seems in my life thus far), I am a jack-of-all-trades and master of none. I literally work in every department...It has been very rewarding...and frustrating...and revealing.
Controlling my temper, loving the unloving, blessing and honouring the undeserving, just trying to reflect the character of Christ in all I do and say is tremendously difficult at times. And I fail miserably at times. Thankfully, God's mercy and grace is abundant.
That being said, I don't know where you are in your walk, but if you are having a difficult time - you are not alone. Unfortunately, the Christ-follower path is not guaranteed a smooth one. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. John 16:33
Our focus is to be on Christ Jesus. He is our strength, our provider, our counselor, our joy, our protector, our peace...our life.
Keep the faith friends!