This isn't what I expected or what I hoped for by any stretch of the imagination. Sometimes, I am sure that God places me in a bubble of sorts...you know, the boundary lines fall in pleasant places kinda feel, but without the "pleasant" aspect...more like a "tolerable" place...the "in-between" place...lukewarm - not hot, not cold..."God, I don't like this place."
So, here in this place, I turn to God for guidance (more like desperation to get out) and I listen for Him to speak...to show me the way...for a sign...Instead, He talks about how He loves me...how I am His. ! How do you whine to God when He is telling you that He loves you?! So, I rest in His love - for a while - and then I dig a little deeper. "God, why am I bothered in this situation?" (tenacious - one of my discriptors...I think God made me that way...perhaps) And He is silent. I listen harder. "Lord, help me to hear Your voice, please remove that from me which hinders me from hearing You...please." ...then, I see a word in my mind... FEAR
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For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.~Isaiah 41:13