Isaiah 52:11,12

11 Depart, depart, go out from there! Touch no unclean thing! Come out from it and be pure, you who carry the vessels of the LORD.
12 But you will not leave in haste or go in flight; for the LORD will go before you, the God of Israel will be your rear guard.

Communication. Waiting.

I am waiting...

For what?

I don't know.

Then how do you know you are waiting? And why be bothered by it?

Because, deep inside I know that...

Know what?

That I have a purpose.

Ya...so??

Something needs to change in order for that purpose to be revealed.

Why is that?

Because, this path that I am on is weighing me down, destroying me.

...Or could it be that this path is preparing you?

What?!

What are you learning on this path?

I dunno....I guess I am learning to trust God more...I am learning to discern His voice...

Is that all?

I am learning that there are things I like and do not like and to speak out about those things.

It would seem that there are many lessons you are learning then.

I suppose.

Perhaps you should stop allowing yourself to be bothered by the waiting and live in the moment, engaging in what's around you...your purpose will come...perhaps it is already here.

Who Do You Think You Are?!

Looking in the mirror, I think to myself...

Philippians 2:3 Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Philippians 2:2-4 (in Context) Philippians 2 (Whole Chapter)

Stepping Out Into the Unconventional

Life is quite a journey, isn't it? There is so much to see and do, so many places to explore, so many wonderful people to encounter...On days like this one, I wonder what exactly am I doing, or rather, what am I going to do. I am not content to just be day in and day out. Are you?

There are things that keep us from doing all that we desire - work obligations, family, health, finances, fear...How do we overcome these things and live life to the fullest or how do we incorporate our desires and our obligations?


For me, it would seem, that it would require stepping out into the unconventional...am I brave enough?

If you have been following my postings at all, you would see that I am indeed on a journey that has ups and downs. I intended this blog to be real and sometimes raw. I needed to overcome the self-imposed stigma of what a 'good little Christian girl' should look like and behave like. It has been a HUGE battle, in my mind and outside of it too.

In this journey, I am being transformed into who I want to be, who I truly am. The woman of God I am called to be. This can be weighty at times because I have imposed expectations on what I think that looks like, only to learn that I need to look at the bigger picture. I liken this to a horse that has worn blinders all its life and lead by others here and there and then one day, the blinders are removed and so is the harness and she is free...free, but all she has ever known is blinders and someone else's direction. What should she do with this freedom? Go back and behave like she is still wearing blinders, waiting for someone to direct her or step out and explore? On her own...free...?

Heavy posting? Can you relate?

This image I have had about how to serve God and reflect His love and Truth has been put through the ringer. This world has changed immensely from the 70's when the first impressions of what a 'glCg' should look and behave like was introduced to me. Now, the way we Christians relate our faith, the need to drop facades (still haven't figured out the cedilla), to be real - not hide behind ritual, routine, pomp, and unreasonable, unbiblical expectations....Though God remains the same, society changes. And I do not want to be left in the dust as seekers turn on their heels from the aforementioned...I want to walk with them. This is a burden to my heart. But I am unsure what that will look like for me.

Lord, please show me the way, Your way; I have been led by man for far too long...Please show me, Lord Jesus, the way...

....The journey continues....

Meaningful Words

anger
fear
frustration
desire
freedom
obedience
peace
love
healthy
productive
forward
vindication
counsel
direction
purpose
security
work
joy
meaning
future
glory
balance
wisdom
Words that are meaningful to my world this season.

The Journey Continues...

This journey that I am on...some days I want to get off the boat and hide myself where only the deer would find me...under some cedars, on a soft mossy ground, and perhaps a soft babbling stream nearby...

Father, how did I end up here? I am tired and I want...I want...sigh...
I did not ask for this journey, did I? And why didn't you intervene, so that I...why didn't you intervene?!

~Daughter, I laid the choices before you. You choose this journey.

Fine. So, what do I do now? What are my choices now?

~Well, you can continue your way or you can journey my way.

Oh grrreat! I thought I was journeying your way! Where did I take the turn to my way??

~Way back at the beginning. You turned your back on me in September of 1988. It was then that you decided things would be done your way.

Oh. I remember that. I ripped up that letter that I didn't even open...I wish I hadn't. I know it held something beautiful inside. Didn't it?

~Daughter, it is time to look forward. I want you to look at me.

I am.

~No, I want you to look at me, in my fullness.

Is that possible?

~I wouldn't offer if it wasn't possible.

Walk the Walk You Talk...

You talk fearlessly, now it is time to walk fearlessly; I will walk with you.

CORRECTION -

You talk courage, now it is time to walk courageously; I will still walk with you.

Random Thoughts

The lesson for today is: Pinesol and paint fumes will cloud your thinking, make you irritable, and tired! You may end up with a headache too. Arg. This is the 3rd paint job on this room and I am thoroughly sick of painting, but I have to (want to) get it done - tonight.

I have had a quiet house all week. Both of my girls are at camp learning to windsurf. Hopefully, the weather cooperated with them for getting out on the lake. In this time, I have gutted both of their rooms and tidied. With my oldest's room, I also added a coat of paint. The paint job before was unfinished and I was not happy with the colour; Sam didn't mind the colour so much, but she also didn't mind if it morphed into a new wavelength...And that it did. I took the original paint which was a translucent magenta (don't ask...) and mixed it with white to get this funky pinky/violet. I hope she likes it, and if she doesn't, well...let's just say, she will be buying the paint and applying it on her own.

Having all of this quiet time reinforces my desire to get into the workforce (outside the home). I now have a new appreciation for people who live alone, it can be downright boring at times, especially when the weather is incompatible with the activities you would like to do during the day!!

I also learned that I still need to work on self-discipline....you know, like making a list of things to do and actually doing them!

All in all, it has been a great week. But I do miss my girls:)

That's it. No Word thoughts, nothing profound today - unless you consider the advice at the beginning...perhaps this is why this post is as it is... Now, to finish that painting...or maybe I will put up my curtain rods....

Smile:)

Song of Songs...

Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires...SoS 3:5b

God's Will Be Done

Prayer, pray without ceasing, ask and you shall receive, the prayers of the righteous are heard, pray, pray, pray!

How do you pray when you don't know what to pray for?

I pray God's will be done.

That's a heavy prayer.

God's will be done!?

What if God's will and my will are different?

What if I want something and God gives me something else?

God's will be done.

I guess I should not get too alarmed at asking for God's will to be done.

He is loving...He loves me more than I could imagine and the plans He has for me are plans to prosper me, not to harm me - to give me a hope and a future, right?!

God's will be done.

Do I trust Him? That is the real question.

Do I really trust that my God loves me, cares for me, will provide for me?

God's will be done.

Come what may, God has my best intentions.

I will rejoice in His will for me because I will see that all along His way was better than my way, His thoughts higher than my thoughts - He is God after all.

God's will be done.

God's will be done...Do I trust Him?

Those that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength, rise up on wings like eagles and soar...I would like that. Pray. Pray God's will be done.

Steadfast

Isaiah 26:3 You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you. Isaiah 26:2-4 (in Context) Isaiah 26 (Whole Chapter)

YAWEH-YIREH

As I have been dunging out my abode, I came across a special piece of work my youngest wrote. When she was about 8, my daughter was learning about Psalms and as part of the process, she was asked to write her own Psalm to the Lord. She agreed when I asked her if I could share her work on my blog...

The Lord My Provider
You fill my cup and my plate

You know when I need

And you know when I am full

You are my YAWEH-YIREH

I feel complete.

By: Reena

Sense Deliberately

This picture is not very big (sorry) - the trees I am unfamiliar with...but they struck me as quite beautiful. The way they twist and curve upward, and outward at the top. The canopy creates a seemingly, wonderfully, magical ambiance...I would love to explore this forest...and linger, breathing deep the moment...I can almost hear the birds...and the warmth of the sun is not scorching, but rather soothing as it dances through the canopy to the floor of this delightful place...

Ahhh, to think that someone visited here and took a picture because they saw something momentous. I wonder if they stopped to thank God for allowing them the experience of this instant?

How often do you stop to "smell the roses"? ...Look around and see your world differently? Instead of the room with toys spread all over, a mess to clean up - look at it with a different perspective, say, that of the child who would come upon this room...how would they perceive it? In my experience, even one colourful object is enough to stir a child into wonder, let alone an entire room full of objects! Or how about the buildings and offices that you pass by day in and day out? What made each building the way it is ? I mean, was it designed for function, for ascetics, for both? Could you tell me the colour of each building, or whether there is a doorman, or stained glass, or gargoyles? Do you stop to see the detail or are all the buildings just a blur of familiarity before you enter your workplace?

I know at times it is impractical to stop what your are doing to engage in a slower, more deliberately observant action, but sometimes it is the best thing for you to do. Without taking the time to look at things and situations differently, we end up rather flat - 2-dimensional - less alive. God gave us our senses (how ever many you believe we have) to experience this world and most of us get into a routine of using only those senses that are obvious to the experience. For example, we see a beautiful yellow rose bush and think it is a delight to the eyes, but do you stop to smell the roses? feel the velvety petals or the sharpness of the thorns (though common sense might suggest that you avoid caressing the thorns...)? do you listen for bees or other insects, or whatever might be lurking about?

I guess what I am trying to say is don't be satisfied with the obvious, the mundane, the routine. Use your senses deliberately to explore and experience differently! When people loose their eyesight, their hearing and touch tends to become more astute; people who loose their hearing, tend to see details that hearing-others take for granted. Use your eyes, your ears, your nose, your mouth, your hands, your feet, your heart to experience this world the Lord has created and give Him thanks.

Thank you Father, I can see the trees sway in the wind,
Thank you Lord, I can feel the cool water rush by my toes,
Thank you God, I can taste the pomegranate as the seeds explode with flavour,
Thank you Jesus, I can sense Your awesome Presence,
Thank you.

Encouragement

Today I was looking for encouragement and came across this devotional by the wife of Oswald Chambers, inspired from his writings in "My Utmost for His Highest". I think it is a beautiful thing that the wife of this man would continue to further his legacy, encouraging the body of Christ and honouring the Lord.

THE NOTION OF DIVINE CONTROL

"How much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask Him?" Matthew 7:11

Jesus is laying down rules of conduct for those who have His Spirit. By the simple argument of these verses He urges us to keep our minds filled with the notion of God's control behind everything, which means that the disciple must maintain an attitude of perfect trust and an eagerness to ask and to seek.

Notion your mind with the idea that God is there. If once the mind is notioned along that line, then when you are in difficulties it is as easy as breathing to remember - Why, my Father knows all about it! It is not an effort, it comes naturally when perplexities press. Before, you used to go to this person and that, but now the notion of the Divine control is forming so powerfully in you that you go to God about it. Jesus is laying down the rules of conduct for those who have His Spirit, and it works on this principle - God is my Father, He loves me, I shall never think of anything He will forget, why should I worry?

There are times, says Jesus, when God cannot lift the darkness from you, but trust Him. God will appear like an unkind friend, but He is not; He will appear like an unnatural Father, but He is not; He will appear like an unjust judge, but He is not. Keep the notion of the mind of God behind all things strong and growing. Nothing happens in any particular unless God's will is behind it, therefore you can rest in perfect confidence in Him. Prayer is not only asking, but an attitude of mind which produces the atmosphere in which asking is perfectly natural. "Ask, and it shall be given you."

1 JOHN 1:3

요한일서 1:3 (Korean Bible)
Korean Bible (KOREAN)
Public Domain
3우리가 보고 들은 바를 너희에게도 전함은 너희로 우리와 사귐이 있게 하려 함이니 우리의 사귐은 아버지와 그 아들 예수 그리스도와 함께 함이라

Coincidence or Fate?

You know, I was drawn into the world of blogs and blogging by an article that spoke of facades. It catapulted me into this adventure of exploring words, other people's perspective on life, my own beliefs about who I am, who I want to be, and how I view the world. The interesting thing about that article was that I passed by it 6 or 7 times before I stopped to read it. I noticed it, but I "didn't have time" to stop and read it. Every time I noticed it though, I had this prompting within gently suggest to me that I need to read it. The rebel within was indignant and hence the reason why I passed by the article so many times before I dove in to read it.

The article set me on a path that I had been longing for.

A path that is leading me to a deeper relationship with God, a refining of my soul and spirit - a polishing of the Pearl, so to speak, and an infilling of my heart's desires.

Was it a coincidence that I read this article that has catapulted me forward? Or was it fate?

If I had of continued to skip over the lead-in to that article, where would I be now? Would I be blogging? Would I have grown emotionally, mentally, or spiritually as I have now? Would I this...? Would I that...??

Is there ever such a thing as a coincidence? Or is everything fate?

Recently, I have been hearing over and over how people and circumstances have come together in a most beneficial way and the people seeing these things are giving God the credit. "God had this planned all along..."

I am talking about things that range from people who have ended up meeting others in a seemingly serendipitous encounter to the acquiring of buildings and funding that have 'miraculously' been made available.

Personally, I believe all things occur for a reason.

People who are afraid of losing control use the word "coincidence". I would suggest that these people quiver in fear at the idea that an entity that they cannot influence has chosen to work in their world for better or for worse! Think about it...

If a person believes that God is in control of all things, they would see events in life as fate; whereas, a person who does not recognize God as the one who formed you in the womb, the One that has a plan and purpose for your life, the One that weaves all things together ... well, this person would believe in coincidence.

What do you believe?

The article I mentioned is Michael Warden's "The Beautiful Facade" http://www.crosswalk.com/singles/11563262/
You can also check out more of Michael D. Warden's writings by following his link aside.

Let Me Remind You To...

BE REAL!

Remember who you are.

1 Peter 2:9 But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 1 Peter 2:8-10 (in Context) 1 Peter 2 (Whole Chapter)

How Do You Think?

"Where does this lead? Where are you leading me? Can I trust you?"

"What a beautiful scene! Let's go! I've got your back!"

Which would you instinctively say?

Personal - Just Me One Morning...

I have not yet had a coffee this morning and I am feeling somber. Outside there is a mist that nearly obstructs the view beyond the house across the street. There are birds singing in the distance; their song seems less lively than on a morning filled with sunshine. All in all, a state of blahness is setting into my day.

I woke up this morning thanking God for different things, praying for people I care about, and asking for His help and guidance throughout this day. ...Shine through me this day God, somehow, shine through me...

I read the Word, I am reading the book of Jeremiah, and I ponder the words...I end with Jer. 45 and I am reminded of how I used one of the verses in a posting not too long ago...Should you seek great things for yourself? Seek them not.

Where will this day lead? Someplace wonderful, I pray.

I am getting my house in order right now - I felt impressed upon to do so. I have gotten rid of a lot of junk and garbage. It feels good to do this. I am working on my kitchen right now. New appliances are arriving in August, after I replace the floor, counter, and backsplash. I intend the new counter to be a granite - 'verde butterflies' - it is dark with greens, gold, and black...It should look quite nice.

I really should do some reading today. I have about 6 books on the go, four of them in seriousness...and one of those is my study book for my RN exam. It would seem as though I am in a constant state of information overload. Light reading is not in my agenda lately...although, I am reading Kate DiCamillio's "The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane" out loud to my youngest at bedtime.

A red cardinal and a yellow finch arrive simultaneously on the lilac tree outside my window and linger there together...an unlikely couple, but a beautiful sight to behold. I like birds. I had a canary, but he died a few weeks ago (I believe it was because of the chemicals that were used on the broccoli - I did wash the broccoli quite thoroughly before giving it to Tweet...apparently not thoroughly enough...) ...The cardinal flies away first and the yellow finch flits from branch to branch and a minute or two later, it too flies off. A nice distraction to my morning.

I am feeling the need to grind some beans...Canadian coffee, Kicking Horse Coffee - Grizzly Claw dark...yep, it is time to brew...

As I listen to the coffee brew, I am grateful for a quiet house...it is 8:15 a.m. and everyone is still sleeping...and I don't mind at all! Normally, I am up around 6 a.m., but I was tired this morning. Perhaps it was my late night workout at the gym with the steambath and sauna afterward that tired me out?

Ahh, the sun has almost burned its way through the clouds...and it is gone....

Coffee is ready...I'll be back...

Ahhhhh....I like coffee. I didn't use to drink but on the odd occasion. That was 4 years ago. Thanks to the nursing program at the university and a certain Prof that spoke a "prophetic" word over us (...or was it a curse???)...what did she say? "If you don't drink coffee, by the time you finish this program, you WILL drink coffee." ...I did resist for about a year and a half...but the draw was too great and I was weak, I was willing...the fragrance led to tasting, and tasting lead to a full affair...coffee and I are partners...(Little humour there, don't get alarmed...)

My day has begun and I can feel the coffee feeding my brain cells, it is a good thing. I am looking forward...forward.

...So God, what would you have me do for You this day? Do you have anything you want to say to me? Help me to hear you Holy Spirit.

Please bring great blessing to all who read this...prosper them mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually, and financially...and may they give You the glory, for it is You, Lord Jesus, who deserves all our praise and thanks! Seek first His Kingdom and His Righteousness...

Thank you for this new day.

Psalm 32

This morning as I sat with the Lord, I felt impressed upon to post this Psalm. This is one of my favourite Psalms because it reveals the open honesty of the relationship between David and his Father God...our Father, our God. We must realize we can hide nothing from God, yet we can turn to Him and seek forgiveness and refuge. He loves us and will guide us in all things when we turn to Him. This is something to rejoice over!

Psalm 32
Of David. A maskil.

1 Blessed is he whose transgressions are forgiven,whose sins are covered.
2 Blessed is the man whose sin the LORD does not count against him and in whose spirit is no deceit.
3 When I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long.
4 For day and night your hand was heavy upon me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer.
5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity. I said, "I will confess my transgressions to the LORD "—and you forgave the guilt of my sin.
6 Therefore let everyone who is godly pray to you while you may be found; surely when the mighty waters rise,they will not reach him.
7 You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance.
8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.
9 Do not be like the horse or the mule, which have no understanding but must be controlled by bit and bridle or they will not come to you.
10 Many are the woes of the wicked, but the LORD's unfailing love surrounds the man who trusts in him.
11 Rejoice in the LORD and be glad, you righteous; sing, all you who are upright in heart!

Being Real...Frustrated

I am somewhat frustrated with some circumstances in my life right now that have left my helpless - not hopeless, in a holding pattern of sorts. I want to lash out in anger knowing full well that it will not help. I have been here before. I am required to wait for the Lord to work all things together....In the meantime, I need to keep my eyes on Him. Off my circumstances and on Him. This requires determination and resolve! I am bound and determined to walk with God...I know what happens when I rush ahead, outside of His protection, away from the "sweet spot" of existence with Him. I DO NOT want to go there.

The curve balls life throws at you can come out of nowhere it would seem, and strike you, leaving you bruised...just when you thought you were playing volleyball, you realize you are in a game of baseball. How did I miss that one?!

Focus...

Do you ever have experiences like this? I would like to think I am not alone.

So, what do I do? Scream, shout, get angry at God for allowing me to be subjected to this situation?? Get ANGRY at God?! That is blasphemous isn't it? I wouldn't say so, God is big enough to handle my anger. He is also gracious enough to exercise patience while I work through my frustrations and come to the conclusion that I am angry because I have tried to rely on myself, my understanding, my idea of how things should be..me...its all about me!

See the flaw?...Yeah, when I am done my ranting and pouting, this is where I end up. Sadly, I have been here quite often and I would not be surprised to end up here again....however, my response time to recognizing where I am at has vastly improved! Which means that I spend less time ranting and more time focusing on getting back in step with the Lord and back to the sweet spot.

The most effective way for me to get my eyes off of my circumstances and on to the Lord include:

• Prayer - First, I usually pray, which includes the ranting and recognizing that my circumstances have overwhelmed me. Like Peter, I got distracted by the wind and rain around me and I am starting to sink. I need help, I need Jesus. I ask for help.
• Listening - Once I have prayed, I listen to what the Spirit is saying. I usually hear words of comfort or scripture will come to mind. Sometimes, I am convicted outright. This is not a condemnation, but a conviction that what I am struggling with requires me to repent.
• Resolve - I choose to trust in the Lord. When I have prayed, calmed down, and listened for direction, I resolve to change. Change my attitude, change my thinking, change my behaviour. Sometimes, I sing songs of praise, or I thank God for my blessings, or read the Bible. Sometimes, I get on with my work...In all cases, I take my eyes off of the thing that would seek to drag me into despair and choose to trust that God can and will make things right. Right in me and in my circumstances.

Okay, so the Word for the day is...
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-7 (in Context) Proverbs 3 (Whole Chapter)
(If you have read this far, I would recommend reading the whole chapter of Proverbs 3, it is worth it, even if to just refresh your memory, I did.)

Now, back to keeping pace with God and into the sweet spot I return...Thank-you Jesus!

Conversing With My King

Ahhh...delight to my heart when I converse with my King.

He speaks His wisdom to me.

I ponder His Truth, He lets me work it through.

I ask Him a question, He speaks insight into my heart.

Show me the way. What does this mean?

The answer is here...follow Me.

I smile at His answers (my heart already knew),

He loves me, my King...His love is true.

A Wall Of Water

12 Didn't we say to you in Egypt, 'Leave us alone; let us serve the Egyptians'? It would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the desert!"
13 Moses answered the people, "Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. 14 The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."
15 Then the LORD said to Moses, "Why are you crying out to me? Tell the Israelites to move on. 16 Raise your staff and stretch out your hand over the sea to divide the water so that the Israelites can go through the sea on dry ground. 17 I will harden the hearts of the Egyptians so that they will go in after them. And I will gain glory through Pharaoh and all his army, through his chariots and his horsemen. 18 The Egyptians will know that I am the LORD when I gain glory through Pharaoh, his chariots and his horsemen."
19 Then the angel of God, who had been traveling in front of Israel's army, withdrew and went behind them. The pillar of cloud also moved from in front and stood behind them, 20 coming between the armies of Egypt and Israel. Throughout the night the cloud brought darkness to the one side and light to the other side; so neither went near the other all night long.
21 Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea, and all that night the LORD drove the sea back with a strong east wind and turned it into dry land. The waters were divided, 22 and the Israelites went through the sea on dry ground, with a wall of water on their right and on their left.
Exodus 14:12-22 New International Version (NIV)
Father, please have mercy...sustain me I pray.

Walk With Him

LET GOD BLESS YOUR DAY!

WALK WITH HIM, HE KNOWS THE WAY.

Giving Up Control

Do you canoe? I enjoy canoeing. I would like to do more canoeing in the future, but I realized something. I need to be able to give up control. "What do you mean?" You might ask...Well, I was at the cottage this weekend past with some friends and we went canoeing. I normally sit in the back and steer, this is what I have always done. One of my friends; however, suggested he sit in the back because he is heavier than me and he felt more comfortable in the back of a canoe. At first, in my mind, I resisted, thinking, 'Do I trust him to steer?' 'He doesn't know the lake, after all, and he is also visually impaired - legally blind, so how could he effectively steer the canoe?' I himmed and uhhhed for a few seconds and then I decided to give up my regular role of being in charge and let someone else lead.

It was difficult. Even as we started out, I wanted to steer from the bow. Instinctively I would use different J-strokes and drag my paddle to attempt to change the course of the canoe, but I was at the front and this behaviour didn't have the desired effect that it normally has at the stern. I realized that I was in a different place. A place that had a different role, not a less significant one, just a different one. I quickly understood that I needed to change my thinking from that of controlling the canoe to working with my partner effectively to navigate the water. I changed my paddle strokes and called out to my partner what lie ahead and whether we should make a gentle left or a hard right...When I took up this role, we began to canoe more smoothly and our strokes were stronger and we got further. That was when we could start to relax and enjoy the ride, the outdoors, and conversing. The ride ended up being great fun, once we knew and implemented our roles.

You know, my friend's visual impairment didn't even hinder us like I thought it might. In fact, it actually helped me to be more responsive to my role. I didn't have time to resist my role, I needed to step into it right away; otherwise, we would have run ashore or gone in circles. He knew his role and fulfilled it, I had to follow suit.

It was a good lesson for me. I like to lead. I naturally take the lead, especially if no one steps up to the plate. Sometimes though, I need to recognize that I am not meant to lead. Rather, I am called to follow and/or partner, not be the only one in control. I am more willing to fulfill this new role these days. ...It makes me wonder what God has in store for me - this lesson is preparation for something and I am willing to heed the lesson learned...

Chasing The Wind

Chasing after the wind is a futile thing.
Waiting for the wind to come around you is all you can do.
Imagining the coolness against your skin,
Removing the scorching heat even for a moment,
Seems to give you enough hope to carry on.
Chasing the wind is an impossible task.
Waiting, prepared to receive is all you can do.
How does one prepare?
Expectant. Confident. Content.
Existing in the moment knowing the wind will come.
Chasing to find the wind will lead you astray.
Waiting, not knowing when or how, but trusting.
The wind will come.
In gentle power, in strength controlled,
In awesome wonder.
It will be welcomed, arms out-stretched, face head on.

In the distance...listen...could it be?